Thursday, November 19, 2009

Let Go.

To ‘let go’ does not mean to stop caring. It means I can’t do it for someone else.
To ‘let go’ is not to cut myself off, it is the realization I can’t control another.
To ‘let go’ is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences.
To ‘let go’ is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To ‘let go’ is not to change or blame another, it’s to make the most of myself.
To ‘let go’ is not to care for, but to care about.
To ‘let go’ is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To ‘let go’ is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.
To ‘let go’ is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their destinies.
To ‘let go’ is not to be protective, it’s to permit another to face reality.
To ‘let go’ is not to deny, but to accept.
To ‘let go’ is not to nag, scold or argue, but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To ‘let go’ is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
To ‘let go’ is not to criticize and regulate anybody, but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To ‘let go’ is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future.
To ‘let go’ is to fear less, and love more.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

If I had a computer I would post more

So as you can tell, July 1st is the last time my personal computer has worked. So much has happened since then and I feel like I have really lost touch with the blogesphere. I will try to do better. Besides I am changing my life for the better. I am going to live in the now and not in the past for the future. Just for right now.

I have learned that for the last few years I have not been respecting myself (at all, seriously). I have been putting the needs of others so far above my own that I cannot even identify what my needs are. And guess what, if you don't know what your needs are, how are you ever going to know what your true feelings are. The next few months are about finding clarity, about finding myself.

If i really put my life out there, maybe it will force me to learn who I am again?

Here goes nothing...